Just need to study hard, obey the professors, and this challenge will be completed.

But.. still, there is something missing..
something that should be always.. or if “always” is too much than “often” is okay.. often in my heart and my mind.
And I need to looking for it immediately.. to complete this challenge, I should find it soon.
Now, I still don’t know where or how I can find it, just keep doing my task and sometimes go outside..
Hope I will find it soon..

Now, I am already in different place, different culture, far far away from my home town
Looking at my surroundings whenever I walk.. It’s completely different..
Last months, I went back to my city for holiday, and now I already come back here

I feel that my life now like in a long long dream
few dreams that were decided in a short term
…

[to be continued]

Saying I love you
Is not the words I want to hear from you
It’s not that I want you
Not to say, but if you only knew
How easy it would be to show me how you feel
More than words.. is all you have to do to make it real
Then you wouldn’t have to say that you love me
Cos I’d already know

What would you do if my heart was torn in two
More than words to show you feel
That your love for me is real
What would you say if I took those words away
Then you couldn’t make things new
Just by saying I love you

More than words

Now I’ve tried to talk to you and make you understand
All you have to do is close your eyes
And just reach out your hands and touch me
Hold me close don’t ever let me go
More than words is all I ever needed you to show
Then you wouldn’t have to say that you love me
Cos I’d already know

Now, I still can’t see your sincerity

Got up in the morning..
prepared “chicken & egg with rendang seasoning”..
and it was cooked successfully..
It taste very delicious, my friends also like it. so happy

Got up in the afternoon
went to Shida night market with Mb Irma
walked around the street, saw many interesting stuff..
bought chocolate yogurt with oreo, choco chips, and wafers.. so delicious
bought a beautiful skirt..
drank starbucks chocolate cream chips, sat in 2nd floor of the cafe, saw the night in taipei. so pleased

Happy day is this Saturday, and I want to keep this good mood, don’t want to be bothered with just a simple matter.
12 weeks before holiday in Indonesia..

We spent our life looking for
That one thing that makes it all
Worth all the tears that fall

Walking down on this road
Moving on, stepping forward
Althought it’s not that easy

Just keep holding on
Just keep pressing on
Just keep moving on

There is time for crying, for smiling
For just holding on
There is time for waiting, for believing that
Everything will be okay in the end

keluar ke hutan, kemudian menyanyiku
keluar ke pantai, kemudian teriak ku
sepi…sepi.., dan sendiri aku benci
aku ingin bingar, aku mau di pasar

bosan, aku dengan penat
dan enyah saja kau pekat
seperti berjelaga jika ku sendiri

kenapa tak pecahkan saja gelasnya biar ramai
biar mengaduh sampai gaduh

kenapa tak goyangkan saja loncengnya
biar terdera

atau…
aku harus lari ke hutan belok ke pantai?

Baca puisi ini jadi senyum sendiri dan teringat sebuah nasehat kalau..
“Hidup itu adalah seni mengelola kejenuhan”
Manusia hidup di dunia pasti sering mengerjakan sesuatu secara berulang-ulang, baik itu pekerjaan kita ataupun tugas-tugas kita..
Dan bagaimana caranyakah kita menemukan cara untuk membuatnya tak monoton atau merangkai kepingan2 semangat dengan refreshing ke suatu tempat(asal jangan ke hutan, bahaya nanti ketemu macan :p).

Masih belajar.. untuk selalu semangat, di keadaan apapun..
belajar untuk menikmati suatu pekerjaan, walaupun dengan tekanan. Bismillah.

[mengutip dari suatu puisi, dengan beberapa perubahan :p] :
Jiwa tak kan pernah mengenal arti tegar jika ia hanya datar merasakan perjalanan kehidupan.
Hati tak kan pernah mengerti rasa sakit, jika ia selalu bahagia..
Maha Suci Allah, Tuhan Semesta Alam atas segala rangkaian hidup yang sempurna ini.

[ H.R. Tirmidzi ] :
“Ketahuilah… Kemenangan itu bersama kesabaran, Keleluasaan bersama dengan adanya kegelisahan,, Dan Kesukaran itu bersama dengan kemudahan”

We never bored, never in this life and our luck.
We will continue to laugh and be all right.
Turned to the sky and the ground,
breathe deeply and take great care not to fall.
We have fun, that’s the carefree life.

Ar Rad(13) : 11
….Sesungguhnya Allah tidak merubah keadaan suatu kaum sehingga mereka merubah keadaan yang ada pada diri mereka sendiri. ….dan sekali-kali tak ada pelindung bagi mereka selain Dia.

Al Baqoroh(2) : 186
Dan apabila hamba-hamba-Ku bertanya kepadamu tentang Aku, maka (jawablah), bahwasanya Aku adalah dekat. Aku mengabulkan permohonan orang yang berdoa apabila ia memohon kepada-Ku, maka hendaklah mereka itu memenuhi (segala perintah-Ku) dan hendaklah mereka beriman kepada-Ku, agar mereka selalu berada dalam kebenaran.

bukan itu..
dan kau tinggalkan satu
mencari lain satu
dengan hati beku

satu tak suka itu
satu belum bisa terima itu
satu terlalu lugu

to be continued..